He remainded annoyed with himself until he realized that not knowing what he wanted was actually quite natural.
We can never know what to want, because, living only one life, we can neither compare it with ou previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come.
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There is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. We live everything as it comes, withou warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself? That is why life is always like a sketch. No, ´sketch´is not quite the word, because a sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch for nothing, an outline with no picture.

Milan Kundera- The Unbearable Lightness of Being

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